Just an everyday thing.

Not what I expected.. Not what I intended, but dam.. It was like a shot in the heart. Days are starting to get worst and worst, wheres the better in it? I'm still in search of it. I feel like the days aren't getting much better than what they are now. I need to move... AGAIN. I miss my happy self.. I miss how happy I was with him. Asking myself.. "what am I really looking for?" yet I can never answer that question without feeling confused. All I really can do now is.. just sit back and relax. Let life take it's roll.. Not my turn yet.