Lets start this off by saying.. He's the best boyfriend ever. Yeah, I know.. So cheese, but hey.. It's true. I remembered when we first said "Hi" at Main street station.. He had such a deep voice, I was actually scared of him, but we started talking and everything was fine. I was bringing him to the studio for his FIRST dance classes at DREAM. From there, the story began writing itself.
I don't think I can ever explain how he makes me feel, he's so sweet, he's kind, he's cute, he's a dope ass mother effin' dancer, he's a sick graphic designer, he's caring, he's loving, he's a boy, but really.. those are all words. Nothing can ever compare to the love he gives me. I can list a million things about him, but it can't show you how much he loves me or how much he means to me.
To be honest, I didn't think I was gonna have anything for Bonus.. I thought we were just gonna be good friends. I kept thinking "yeah, I don't think me and Bonus will EVER go out. He wouldn't like me.. like wtf?".. But who would of thought I was wrong. He's someone so special that I don't want to lose. We've known each other for 4 years and out of those 4 years, 2 of the years.. I fell for him. Silly as that may sound.. "Really? two years?" Well, yes. TWO YEARS.
It all started back at my first party with the "oldies" and "youngins" .. I threw a huge party just for the two separate groups. All I remember was when we were all walking back to my house from the park.. Me and Bonus were holding hands walking down a hill.. And I thought it was the cutest thing in the world. I felt like he just took my heart and never gave it back. It was just right. From then on, we never spoke of that night and I always wondered why. But I never got my answer. Til another came along, he took me away once again. Me and some of the DREAM'ers went out for a late night dinner, as a celebration of a show we just did.. and once again.. We were holding hands.. and I really thought it was something, so I kept texting him, but little did I know. He didn't see me in that way. So, things didn't work out for us.. but since then.. I've been trying to move on for a while, liking other guys, but guess what? Didn't work. I still fell for him either way.
Yeah, say it's cheese, but it's true. I fell for him even when I tried to move on. He just took my heart and never gave it back. I just chased after him to get it back, but that didn't work either because now I'm with him. Which is the best for me 'cause now I don't have to keep wondering what would things be like with him. I don't have to wonder anymore because it's now reality. I love it, I love him. He's what I wanted and that's for real. He puts that smile on my face, with no question asked. He always asks me "Why do you think I'm such a good boyfriend?" and I can never answer him... and he always says "See, you can't even say why!" but really.. I had no words to explain it.. I couldn't explain how I felt for two years.. Theres no words out there to explain the feelings I have for him. Because I'm just happy where I am with him.
Whether other girls like him, I know I can always put my trust in him because he will never let me down. I can never question his sincerity to me. Theres never a time where I question myself is this a mistake? But only once.. When he shut me down, but ever since.. There was no questions asked. I wanted him and I was certain. I can keep writing more and more, but really.. I'll just be writing, but no one will ever feel that love I feel from him. So, I'll let everyone know now. I love Chris, and theres no doubt about that.
P.S. I'm a sucker for dark brown eyes.
- Melay.
