So.. what do I say?

I'm so fucking out of words right now. Sorry for my bad language, but fuck. I'm so.. I don't even know how to explain how I feel right now. It's unbelievable.. What do I say? Do I say i'm mad? Do I say i'm disappointed? Do I say i'm frustrated? Do I say i'm hurt? Do I say i'm happy for you? I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO FUCKING SAY! It's the first time I was put down by you, but it's ok. I understand. I'm happy with your decision, it is your life. I can't do anything, but standby and watch. Yeah, it hurt a bit to hear what was going on. But I can handle it. I just never thought it'd come by so soon. It was so out of the blue, so.. random. But thats not the REASON why i'm writing this.. HOW COULD YOU FORGET WHEN THE LAST TIME WE TALKED. hfabkasjbfsabfkadufgafgabfaklbfh BYE.